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11:03 PM June 11th
[This is a private post. Only friends can see this.]i have no diary
this will have to doi shouldnt be up right now but asriel hasnt come home yet. hes probably out with his friends again. hes been out a lot recently. trying to spend time with them before he has to leave. but here i am. hes barely spent any time with me. hes leaving me forever and ever and he doesnt even want to say goodbyemom says its not forever but i see that look on his face. hes so happy to leave this place behind. hes so happy to leave me behind. dad says he should fufil his dreams but i dont want him to go. i want him to stay here forever so we can be happy. i dont want to be alone again.i saw it again in the mirror. it was staring at me like every time before. i couldnt see what its face looks like. but it opened its mouth and i just

7:12PM June 20th
[This is a private post. Only friends can see this.]he left todayi stayed in my room all dayhe knocked on the doori told him to leave me alonei should have said goodbye

9:36 PM June 31st
[This is a private post. Only friends can see this.]she fell asleeep agiini told her i wanted a snack from the other room and i went to go play the piano
when i came back she was lying on the couch and her gamepad was on her chesti walked home
it was rainingi wish she heard what i was playing

8:12 PM July 6th
[This is a private post. Only friends can see this.]i miss who i used to be
i had so much fun playing with my friendsi cant go outside anymore
i cant think anymore
im empty
i feel hollow
like i lost myselfi think when asriel left
part of me did too

11:13 PM July 21st
[This is a deleted post. Only you can see this.]i went to see father alvin
he had so much to say to me, i could see it in his eyesbut all he did was look at me the same way that everyone else has.i wanted to confess everything. the way i felt about asriel, the way i felt about noelle, the plan i came up withbut i kept it to myself.
for once, i said absolutely nothing.

2:41 AM August 7th
[This is a private post. Only friends can see this.]there's a new bully at school
she's loud. every time she says something, i flinch. she always carries around something to eat. sometimes its pencils. sometimes its crayons, sometimes its paper.she shoved me into asriel's locker.
"Maybe your brother left you for a reason."i skipped class.